I grew up in London's South West Wandsworth, the suburbs if you would say of London, this was no area for a kid to grow up there was trouble all around you everyday police were like pieces of furniture, always there all the time always watching. something always happening that made the people of the community live in fear and worry, wither its was muggings, burglary's, walls graphed, murders etc it makes a kid harden over time and become aware of the worlds bad points, learn to look after himself and make him feel like nowhere is safe. when you don't have a father there to keep you strong and give you advice, all you have is your brothers and friends its hard to survive.

i have seen friends Murdered for no real reasons over things that were not important wither it was girls, money, a over due lent computer game or a football match victory it makes you worry and think what the world is turning into, will i ever have a point in my life when i wont have to look over my shoulder wherever i go? , will i ever have a point where you supposed best friends wont stab you in the back first chance they get just to get closer to girls or fortune?

Friends you have known since childhood and are supposed to have your back no matter what against any enemy's that come your way become the enemy themselves and turn on you for pointless and meaning less reasons. Can anyone ever trust any friend fully? friends have come and gone and every time its because they are all fakes and liers, they are all just playing a game to better there popularity or for reasons only they will know. life in the suburbs was hard, i have seen many people not make it out of there, wither its because they lost there life's or because they weren't giving that help at the right time. i was lucky enough to get out of there and make a life for myself, there were some points when i thought is was going to be game over for me but i guess not. i beat all the odds and made something of myself which i would never had become if i stayed there, i honestly believe i would not be here today if i had not made that choice i made 6 years ago. going to that party on the off chance, i met the love of my life, i didn't think it would last but what do you know lol we have been together for 6 years nearly and were engaged ! hell life changes pretty quick lol

now that i had moved out of that old life and have a new one i started working for the first time, i saved money to get into computers which i could not do cause there was nothing were i was for that, and you needed the money which we didn't have. i started self learning things i was interested in, one of them was web design, i was on a site called cooltopten alot as my mate owned it, it was for free viewing of pirate films lol he helped me get started on web sites, i started doing little things like blogs, chat rooms etc then i this software fell into my hands, after about a year of self teaching i could make my own sites with ease!! who said you need collage to learn everything? put your mind to it and you can learn anything in the world yourself.

nearly 2 years ago i bought a PS3, then i bought COD4 of the off chance, i hated war games at that point but i thought i needed a change, and what do you know it fucking rocked lol i started playing online and loved the community, the banter, the winning and pure team effort. it was just what i needed in my life. i thought about making a clan of my own, with our own web site and everything, i went looking for members and found G.R.I.M.B.LE lol funny kid but he was ok, me and him went searching for another member and he said he had a mate RAGNAROK14 who was good, he was and as you have read in RAGNAROKS article it all started from there.

there were a few friends who stabbed me in the back for example Craigy-007, nunnsterrr, Sully_Saints and a few others they left my clan when i had a family crisis, they turned on me when i needed my friends the most, left me alone again just like my friends in the past, they trained in my clan for ages, learn 't skills and tactics together, it was like they used the clan to better themselves and then become the enemy, to be honest i saw i coming.

I have learn 't that life isn't about what comes your way, its what you make for yourself, you can make your life what you want to make it, don't listen to others do what you wanna do, who cares if someone doesn't agree with what you are doing, or laughs because you play computer games, your life is your own, your 1 shot in a high wind field with your target 15 miles away, you only have 1 bullet..

you just need to make that shot connect and don't get that bullet stuck on all those 2 faced friends and obstacles along the way

i have this great clan/friends/family, a fiance i love more then anything in the whole world, honestly i wouldn't give her up for anything she is my whole life and she always will be, the start of something big on the horizon. its all looking good :)

I am truly greatful to you all for making my creation worth something again, i can honestly say that you are all my friends, you need something, someone to talk to or anything else i am always here.

once again thank you all :D

InEvItAbLeReApEr - Michael Searle

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